Drama drama

Tuesday, 28 February 2012

Die-ing! 1 week to dissertation deadline! My brain life has shorten for 10 years because of this stupid piece of work! wtf! I swear I will get a life after this!!£%^$%^&%*&$"%^*&


I know I should be doing my dissertation instead of blogging right now but there's something that I would wanna record down and I don't want miss any single bit of my the thing I am currently experiencing other than my dissertation. I am just going to type what that came into my mind and I could not be bothered to correct any of the grammatical error. wtf.

The whole thing started after 颜色of马来西亚(YY)- MSA largest cultural event. I thought I could finally focus on my dissertation after YY on 19th Feb, but sometimes things happened. Well, it could have been avoided if people look at thing from a different perspective. But unfortunately NOT everyone is steady. Some ppl are just...WTF!

So, here's the story. MSA society hired a car from a person to transport all the food and stuff during YY. Unfortunately, the car run out of petrol. A kind non-MSA member volunteer who has been contributing to MSA all the while, decided to go the the nearest petrol station to buy petrol. Unfortunately being the first timer in buying petrol, this volunteer has no idea which pump is for petrol(though ppl argue this should be common sense), went to ask the worker for his expert advice. However, shit happened! The car broke down and the reason is because diesel was pump into the car instead of petrol. The repair costs around £240. So here's the question, who should be liable? The volunteer or MSA?

I thought it would be unfair for the volunteer to pay everything regardless of whether he is a member or non member. However, some of my committee members argued that it would be unfair to all other volunteers if the money is used to pay for one person mistake and it would be hard to explain during AGM regarding that.WTF! Drama occurred within our board of committee because of this simple little thing which is very disappointing. Due to my close relationship with this volunteer, things get complicated and my flatmate(which is one of the committee) and I were seen as the bias person while stating the reason why MSA should cover the costs. wtf. To avoid all the intense argument keep going on, I decided to use veto power and decided to cover the full repair costs, simply because after consulting so many people about the right, I know what is the right decision to make. I believe that all members will be able to understand this and I am ready to be responsible with the decision I made including paying back the £240 should all members vote against me during AGM. It's just my personality that I do not like to explain much and I will do what I think is the right thing. However, I was being bombarded by most of the committee members for this. No choice, I eventually hold another meeting to explain my decision. I appreciate that my committees are at least sensible to agree with my decision after my I explained.

I believe the whole drama happened is merely due to one outsider who somehow got to know about this incident but do not know about the whole story. When I used my veto power on a committee page which suppose to be a confidential group, one of my committee members showed this to this outsider and he took a picture of it. With his personality, I know he will definitely cari pasal during AGM! But who cares..bring it on! I would enjoy some drama during AGM too.

But what is disappointing is too see my committee members behaving like this. I have been contributing to the society all the while, since the beginning until now, I do not understand why the hell they are so easily influenced by an outsider. Please la, can't you just open your eye and see and judge using your brain? When I was elected as the presi, you guys should not have looked down on my capability. WTF.I will not be so stupid to make a decision just because of some emotional feelings. MSA has organised many good events since the beginning of the year, and if it's not because of the volunteers, MSA is nothing. So when things happened, why are you not there to stand for the volunteer and want him to pay for something that is beyond his control?

When this issue was brought up to all volunteers, none of them sees this as an issue. Nobody complained about been treated unfair because the £240 was used to cover the repair costs. It's sad to see that volunteers are more understanding than the committee and volunteers help without asking for return, whereas us argue among ourselves if we should cover the costs or should it be bear by the volunteer. wtf.

Anyway, it's a good learning experience. Some dramas do spice up my life>.< Not complaining or hating anyone, just a way of telling story. Regardless, I am still cool with my committee members this year and they really do contributed a lot to the society, and I could not have made it without them too. We are still a team and we all work toward the same goal.



Tuesday, 10 January 2012

手表,我不带了;
耳机,我不听了;

粉红猪,我不和你睡了;
狗熊,我不抱你了;
梳子,我不用了;
滑鼠,我会找个新的;
照片,我不看了;
承诺,我不记得了;
在我身边的,我现在不用了;
不在我身边的,请等我,我回到去会逐个遗弃;
回忆,我会随着时间慢慢把你忘记。。

Kickstart 2012 with this!!

Sunday, 1 January 2012

It's 1.1.2012!!


I just realised that the date of my last post is 20 August 2010. That means I have left my blog redundant for more than a year!! Holy Shit! seriously can't imagine how fast time flies!! I can't even remember clearly how I went through my whole year of 2011.

Arghh Crap. Read back what I wrote in the past few years and all I saw was just complaints and emo stuffs. WTH. Is my life really that miserable or I just do not know how to appreciate and see good stuff happening around me? I remember I once told a friend that I had a blog and he was quite surprised. Adrian beside me interupted "yeah, she has a blog and is full of emo stuff!" I denied at that time but I do have to agree completely with you now, Adrian! I miss you by the way and I guess you won't be seeing this as well because you are like me- disappear from blogging for like ages!

So what should be my resolution this year? I can't think of one! What do I want in life? What's the purpose of life? I could not find an answer for myself. Never know it's so hard to get an answer for this simple question. I remember when I first step into secondary school, my aim( well, to be exact, aim set by my mom) was just to do well in studies, the ultimate target was to do well in PMR with a good basis in Form 1 and 2. Then after PMR, I studied for SPM with the aim of getting good results to move on to University. And now what? I am graduating in 6 months time and I don't know what I am looking forward to? Get good results to enter a good company with high pay?! That's ultimate bullshit when you see so many examples outside where people earns tons without even graduating!

Life for the past few years were well designed for me. I was not sure if those were my aim or what I wanted to do but that's the norm. So, JUST FOLLOW!! Thanks to Malaysia Education system that train us to follow every single thing without having our thoughts, don't question just follow!! I have to admit I am lacking of thinking skills and there's why I am struggling so much in doing a research paper! Because all the while I don't think! all I do is read what is in the book and accepting whatever is written there without even doing my own research to investigate if what's stated in the book is right or wrong or if there's any flaws! No wonder I am not scoring in any assignments as University is always asking for detail and critical analysis which I can't fulfill.

Back in secondary, we were taught many subjects and we learned and memorised hell lots of thing! But how many of us actually think outside the box and be creative? I guess all we wanted that time was just to do well in exams. Who actually tried to question the validity of the content? We was not taught to do so anyway and most likely we will get ourselves into shit if we question too much.

There I go, another post of complaint. If only I was brought up in the US probably I will have a whole different mindset since young. Garghh...Nevermind!! I know I can't change the past and some people are just born with a better platform prepared for them. So all I can do now is just work with what I currently have and continuously developing myself!!

Back to Dissertation! Screw it, JUST DO IT!!

Happy New Year 2012!!

Wat the tuuuut!!!!

Friday, 20 August 2010

F**K!!!!

Moody sial!!!

I feel like going home, I miss home. But, I am lazy to go home because is just too much of hassle, provided I spend more money.

I had quite a nice dream last night. I dreamt of this person a few times, though in real life I got nothing to do with this person. Yeah~ reality sucks!!! Having a sweet dream did not make up my day either. I wasn’t in a good mood when I woke up this morning. Dream doesn’t help, I live in reality.

Now I realized I don’t really have many friends that I will really talk to. Yes, I click with people easily most of the time. But when I am moody like right now, I somehow could not find anyone on my msn list that I will want to talk to. Anyway, I am not a person that will take the initiative to talk to people first especially on msn, skype, facebook.

I appear to be happy-go-lucky most of the time, I am in fact. But there’s time where I am moody without reason and I just feel like crying. I guess my eyes have been dried for too long already and my tears bag is full. I think I am just not as strong as how I look or how people usually thought I am. Mummy, on the other hand, though look weak outside, she is the strongest lady I ever met. I never tell her this though. At least she never cries as frequent as me I suppose. Compared with what she had gone through these years, what is all these trivial matters that worth my tears? I am just an immature big crying baby, easily control and affected by feeling sometimes. It is just so not cool la!!! I HATE MYSELF MOST WHENEVER THIS HAPPEN!!! Sigh~ can’t help it.

I guess I needa switch to a new environment. I am trapped in this kind of life for too long already! Sick of it and probably that’s one of the reason of my gloomy day~ I need new things, more happening events to come into my life!!

garrrrrrrrrrrrrgggghhhhhhhh !#$%^&*()#$%^&*(

I miss JAMIESON:(

I am KPMG-ian:)

Monday, 26 July 2010

WeeeeeWeeeee....
I am blogging this in KPMG, using KPMG laptop during office hour.
I am almost bored to death because I am not doing anything for 3 weeks+1 day already, not even binding, photocopying, data inputting. YEAH..I am paid to sit infront of my laptop doing nothing.
I do not want to walk off because I don't know what will happen next and I might be allocated to one of the project. I do not want to regret later. I would want to continue staying here because I am getting closer and closer to people. I dunno:S.. lol...Luckily we have office communicator:) or else I seriously will be dead!!! Life in KPMG is not completely dull though I got no work to do, see how many 'meaningful' events I had:-

1.I spent my whole morning OC with a director. How cool:) This director is really different and I respect his enthusiasm for sports. He copied his song from his laptop for me because I am too bored.

2. Talked to profit sharing partner in an informal way for half an hour during department dinner, telling him that I will come back to KPMG in the future after I graduate if oni he gonna offer me higher pay compare to other companies. It is nice to not have gap with 'boss' and talk like 'friends'. I love listening to his stories. lol..I am among the last to leave the dinner:) 11pm?!

3. Talked to director about education in pantry and ended up goin home at 6.15pm. Yeah..Finally I found someone who agreed with me that LAW n ACCOUNTING is a very good combination and are both important in corporate world!!! see..ppl in corporate world think differently:)

4. First time chatting on google chat with a person sitting beside me in office because we do not want to complain and gossip using OC. so lame right...google chat even he is sitting right beside me..

5. Organising intern lunch with high hope that many interns will turn up but only 4 kittens appeared. Get to know a very lame and over enthusiastic intern from Malaya university.

6.More and more interns lunch, the worst lunch is a aglio olio from DELICIOUS where I was served plain pasta and it cost me rm18. wtf.

7.Looking after 3 hotlines. It either rang once, made me excited and stop; or rang, I picked up, extra excited and realised is a wrong number!!!I have to reach and leave office sharp because of these 3 phones that never ring. FML.

8. Fetched Ashwin K who is abit tipsy home, not wanting to tell me the way and ended up I was horned by some stupid driver!!!

9. Went to support Inter Accounting Firm badminton competition. KPMG ppl rocks, only company that was drinking beer and supporting and doing stupid stuff at the same time. I love it!!! This is totally what I would like to do in the future.

10. Haha..I found my 'twin':)!!! A PERSON THAT HAS 'MIN' IN HIS EMAIL ADDRESS WITHOUT HAVING MIN IN HIS ACTUAL NAME!!!

5.30pm!!! home!!!