Is my day=is not My day

After 19 years, my Chinese Lunar birthday and Western birthday fall on the same day again. September 14 2008 is also 15th day of the 8th lunar month of the chinese calender, which is the mid autumn festival. I am 19th already, one year older again.. sigh~

Last two years, my birthday crashed with my SPM trial, i was sad at that time because no birthday celebration and not many people remember my birthday because everyone was so busy with exam. Everyone in school passed by me without wishing me. Sob sob..that was the year where i received the least birthday wishes.

This year, i received many wishes..but i am not happy at all..i think i would be happier if right now i cant receive any wishes from my friends through my handphone..that means i got what i want..and i think that will be the best birthday present-EDINBURGH!!! Right now, i am living in the dark, standing middle of the road, dont know where to go..I know i got many other choices, but somehow i insist of going Edinburgh..Really frustrated and depress for not getting what i want!!! All birthday wishes have the word "HAPPY", i appreciate those wishes and reply with " haha...thankyou", but deep inside my heart, i am not happy at all...wanted to cry whenever i received message...A call from my brother put me into tears..haiz~~this is the first time i cried during my birthday...today is really suck!suck!suck!!!is no longer a Happy Birthday, is a SAD Birthday...i rather it is not my birthday today..really frustrated...not angry at anyone..but despondent about the way things were going..broken heart...I knew that many people are worry about me, especially mummy, brother, grandmother, friends..and i think i really make my mummy and brother sad..i feel sorry to them, but my attitude towards them is really bad..just cannot control myself and calm down.. too selfish!!! Hopefully things will change soon, or maybe i change my mind and don't insist of going Edinburgh anymore..Pray Hard...

Anyway, I want to express my appreciation to these people for wishing me Happy Birthday. Thank you so much for not forgetting my birthday...thank you so much for the Birthday wish.. Thankz ya...muuaakkkzzxx!!!

Benjamin Chui
Kenneth Lee
Jia Min
Mei Xin
Mohan
Ee Meei
Yen Zhi
Tin Yee
@~Mai
Cai Wei
You Cai
Hui Yan
Wei Leng
Sue Wen
Jed Tin
Yean Xin
Cui Yin
Chen Gui
Wan Ru
Hui Jeng
Phoebe
Shermaine
Yen Wei
Raymond
Hui Chin
Shu Pyng
Brandon
Mei Jing
Ammelind
Daddy
Brother
Eng Yew
Lik Yin
Zeng Zhou
Vanessa Ong
Dante Ting
Ling Yun
Xue Nee
Xing Fang
Keith Lim
爱杰伦 爱宥嘉(friendster)
Blur Ping(friendster)
EVEYLN_苹(friendster)

Big Fatt
Nicholas
Tortoise KG
Qi Rong
Edward
Win Loong
Jessica
Jonathan
Prusho

Pei Ling
Yiung Sing
Isra
See Nah
Yet Shin
Li Chin

Lee Bin
Xiao Yen

This is the birthday present from Kenneth. It is a jed necklace.. Kenneth says it will bring good luck to me...i like it.. Thankz a lot ya, Kenneth..so nice to have you... thankz for your concern!!! HAHA...MUUAAKKZZZXXX!!

Hm...and this whole set of thing is from Zeng Zeng and Min Hao..Two bottles of nail polish.. great..this is the first time i received nail polish as present..Secondary friends will never buy me this..haha..a pair of cicak earing..weird but special..and cat key chain.. Thankz a lot ya zeng and Min Hao..muuaakkzzxx..

Hm....This is from HuiYan...Some stuffs she bought durin her student exchange trip in KOREA!!! wahaha..I have something from Korea..Thankz a lot lo...muuuaakkzzxxx

and thankz to mummy for the 2 small pieces of Secret Recipe cake..and grandma for the food..

Is after 12 o clock..my birthday is over... some of my friends really didnt wish me.. guess they forgot my birthday d..sigh~~ Anyway...Thankz a lot, my friends...