CRAP!!!

00.30am...at this time, I am not supposed to be blogging... Have not done anything for the whole day..Planned to read my book at night...but end up in two gangs chat... I am not the one talking, I am just listening to people conversation all time...They are seriously good joker..Is fun listening to them...but this is not me!!!!
Hey...I used to be a chatter box...I am a good joker in my hometown too!!! But somehow I became a 'listener' here!!! What restrain me for talking??!! Vocabulary?! English?! Confidence?! I got no idea...I just don't know what to say...What the hell is wrong with me??!! I used to be a joker...Mocking at my friends and make fun of them is my expertise..but...yes BUT again... I am totally a dumbo here!!! This is not ME!!! Seriously not ME!!! Is it really so hard to joke in English?!! It not suppose to be a constraint though... or we having different interest and culture..again, I got no idea about that....I think I appear to people as a person that is quiet, nerd, and serious...SIGH~~~
Sometimes, is kind of lonely and boring here... this is the time where I will feel down... At certain time, I don't even feel like talking to anyone... Even sometimes I got the chance to talk to my flatmates, I will stil prefer to be silent...I will just stay in my room, starring at my laptop don't know what to do is good.... a quiet and lonely room with a lonely girl in it~~
To my friends that read this...Dont think that I am not OK!!! I am pretty good here...so, NO WORRY kkkk....

I MISS YOU DEEPLY IN MY HEART