手表，我不带了；
耳机，我不听了；

粉红猪，我不和你睡了；

狗熊，我不抱你了；

梳子，我不用了；

滑鼠，我会找个新的；

照片，我不看了；

承诺，我不记得了；

在我身边的，我现在不用了；

不在我身边的，请等我，我回到去会逐个遗弃；

回忆，我会随着时间慢慢把你忘记。。

Kickstart 2012 with this!!

It's 1.1.2012!!

I just realised that the date of my last post is 20 August 2010. That means I have left my blog redundant for more than a year!! Holy Shit! seriously can't imagine how fast time flies!! I can't even remember clearly how I went through my whole year of 2011.

Arghh Crap. Read back what I wrote in the past few years and all I saw was just complaints and emo stuffs. WTH. Is my life really that miserable or I just do not know how to appreciate and see good stuff happening around me? I remember I once told a friend that I had a blog and he was quite surprised. Adrian beside me interupted "yeah, she has a blog and is full of emo stuff!" I denied at that time but I do have to agree completely with you now, Adrian! I miss you by the way and I guess you won't be seeing this as well because you are like me- disappear from blogging for like ages!

So what should be my resolution this year? I can't think of one! What do I want in life? What's the purpose of life? I could not find an answer for myself. Never know it's so hard to get an answer for this simple question. I remember when I first step into secondary school, my aim( well, to be exact, aim set by my mom) was just to do well in studies, the ultimate target was to do well in PMR with a good basis in Form 1 and 2. Then after PMR, I studied for SPM with the aim of getting good results to move on to University. And now what? I am graduating in 6 months time and I don't know what I am looking forward to? Get good results to enter a good company with high pay?! That's ultimate bullshit when you see so many examples outside where people earns tons without even graduating!

Life for the past few years were well designed for me. I was not sure if those were my aim or what I wanted to do but that's the norm. So, JUST FOLLOW!! Thanks to Malaysia Education system that train us to follow every single thing without having our thoughts, don't question just follow!! I have to admit I am lacking of thinking skills and there's why I am struggling so much in doing a research paper! Because all the while I don't think! all I do is read what is in the book and accepting whatever is written there without even doing my own research to investigate if what's stated in the book is right or wrong or if there's any flaws! No wonder I am not scoring in any assignments as University is always asking for detail and critical analysis which I can't fulfill.

Back in secondary, we were taught many subjects and we learned and memorised hell lots of thing! But how many of us actually think outside the box and be creative? I guess all we wanted that time was just to do well in exams. Who actually tried to question the validity of the content? We was not taught to do so anyway and most likely we will get ourselves into shit if we question too much.

There I go, another post of complaint. If only I was brought up in the US probably I will have a whole different mindset since young. Garghh...Nevermind!! I know I can't change the past and some people are just born with a better platform prepared for them. So all I can do now is just work with what I currently have and continuously developing myself!!

Back to Dissertation! Screw it, JUST DO IT!!

Happy New Year 2012!!